this is it..

just finished watching the latest episode of house.. I dont like it as much as i use to.. or mayb it was just this episode (S06E07).. It makes u feel weird. as if dont really understand or have a grasp on life or something.. hahaaa.. yea, dunno how to describe the feeling.

great u kno.. its just great! so now I am not supposed to call u even.. the heights is that the less i talk to u the more i miss u and think about u!!! hell, its killing..
but I feel this is going to be the turning tip now.. I wnt call often, u nvr gna b online, u for sure wont give me a missed call (u havent even given me one yet, its like u just dont miss me!).. and yea, we are gonna end up being out of touch.. whenever i do call, it will b short, something like hi bye types.. so yea, i guess this is it.. even i think i am loosing my patience now.. tried too hard to know u, know ur feelings and thoughts.. tried hard to tell u that i really do love u.. but ur just distancing urself away from me.. whenever i try to get close, u go back a few steps.. soon we gonna loose each other, even our best friendship.. its all upto u now.. hopefully u will open up, and b urself with me, that ways we will atleast remain the best friends.. and as of now, I still feel we should get married.. i dont know how it will be possible, but something could b worked out.. I was thinking today, like always.. what we had was too perfect! its really hard to reach that level of understanding! the only thing that was missing perhaps was physical attraction.. that can b weighed out and considered as per importance... anyways.. at times even I am confused what to do.. at times i feel like taking the next flight and come and propose u cuz i dont want to loose u.. its foolish of me.. and at times i feel like i have actually moved on.. I guess what i want is to always know everything about u, whether be it as a best friend or husband.. but i have a feeling m nt gonna get any! k, i dunno what crap i am saying.. its 3 and got college tomorrow.. so gonna sleep now.. gnt..