happy :)

for the first time after ages i felt happy yesterday from the inside!! slept soo peacefully at night.. It was as if i had forgotten what its like to sleep in peace and without any stress.. Otherwise ever since I have come to sweden, everythings been too weird and tensed.. I never felt at home. All the nights, I slept with a burden.. Its going to be the same even now, i can already feel tension about some of the things.. but yesterday for some reason, everything seemed alright.. I guess its cuz of saturday night and finally talked to u.. and i guess it was mainly the feeling of hope, that u still love and something could work..

We were happy together.. and that is the only thing that counts! .. i have pondered too much on how we can get married and how everything would be.. it has ups and downs.. but at the end of the day, if we can be happy to be together, nothing else matters! i dunno.. at times i feel i am rushing myself.. thinking about marriage when i have soo far to go.. if i had a sexy job right now na, no one could have sstopped me.. lol.. it all is really confusing, and no matter how much u think about it, there is no conclusion.. I think time will give a solution, there is no point in rushing into everything.. anyways..

Talked to my uncle in England today.. going to start my visa process this week.. If everything works out, i will be there for Christmas! hehe..

Its 2... gonna sleep now.. this week onwards everything is going to be hectic.. too many assignments left and the exams are also coming up! haii.. gnt