keep walking

These past few days have been damn tormenting! ahhh.. Havent heard from you the entire week.. dunno where u have disappeared.. was tempted to call u soo many times, but didnt.. I thought u wld mail me or give me a missed call or something.. I guess you are starting a new life.. and i shouldnt complicate things for both of us.. hmm.. you know whats funny tho, I dont know where I see hopes.. and I dont know why I hold on to you.. cuz it all just ends up hurting me..

U will be out there somewhere having a blast watching a movie in theater probably with your new found love.. and here I am sitting miserbleeee.. I was thinking today.. I left India cuz i truly believed my passion and happiness lies somewhere else.. If i had stayed back, I would never have been happy.. I would never understand what I missed and what I didnt.. so i dont regret coming here, it was inevitable.. I had to do it to truly realize, if only you had given us a second chance.. I just wish that now that I understood there would be some way to fix things.. haiiii.. In these past four months I have seen my life and my dreams coming crashing down..

I keep finding myself in darkness.. couple days back the results came out.. Got 5 (distinction) in Computer Security and 3 (passing) in Internet Technology... more than half the people got failed in Internet Technology and no one got distinction.. Its good that i passed, but i dont feel anythinggg.! Its like i am a zombie just doing what i am supposed to do! i dont know what my passion is or where my happiness lies anymore.. its dark.. i feel lost..

It was snowing today! like properly.. snow flakes as light as shredded cotton pieces were dancing all around.. It was sooo pretty.. they keep flying around in the wind until finally reaching the ground.. first time i saw snow falling like that.. it finally made me smile :)

my bike got punctured.. and guess what, the people here dont remove punctures! haiii.. removed the tire and the tube myself.. but cant figure where the puncture is, I need an air pump.. will have to do something about it.. hmm

On wednesday we went to the rotary pub.. was too depressed and your thought was killing mee.. it was good.. there was Thomas and four other french guys.. Had a lot of beer and stuff.. but its just not the same.. always talking in english is tooo much effort.. conversation becomes an effortt and you have to try too hard..! haii.. also they are different people, with different topics and ideas .. its sadd.. there was beer so its good.. but its kinda pointless, you cant enjoy it! seriously man, I am soo lostt!
Those french dude were discussing the serial "how I met your mom".. it seems they love it! I was shocked.. I told them my best friend watches it but I am totally against.. hmm

I feel soo alone walking on this road :( .. but i keep walking.. I always have :(