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hahaaa.. wow.. interesting post yesterday.. first time i was so drunk in sweden!! and also the first time i actually talked to god it seems from the post .. after like 10 years or something.. interestinggg..

I cried sooo muchhh today .. so much that i really dont have the energ tto type!!! i dont kno y i crid....but i know u do. yyy goodddd.... y make me suffferr''?? i hate u u u ... soo muchhhh

examss

exams are toughh here man.. was never in this ganda situation before.. three exams in a row!! had one today.. might just pass that.. and now just started studying for tomorrows exam.. but m scared for the first time... not gna pass.. havent prepared anything.. ek din me kaise kar sakte hai yaar! not good....

and i miss you soooooo muchhh.. all the songs i listen reminds me of you.. even if they have no connection, just the lyrics make me miss you.. when i think about a person whom i want to be wid, its always youuu.. nothing else come up in my mind.. i just cant picture being with someone else! its all youu, trust me.. i love youu.. we can make it through this, if you wnt to.. take my hand and i promise life will be good, happy and exciting :)

got exams tomorrow.. pretty sure this time not gonna make it.. and here i am writing blogg.. hahaa.. o well.. its all for you.. its all about you.. it always was.. u just didnt realize it.. i just didnt realize it..

mind of your own

just came back from swimming n sauna.. tiredd..

today i talked to u and it soo didnt feel the same prachi that i use to know.. howww? kya bhooth chad jata hai tumko achanak?! i dunno if its good or bad, u have just changed and ur changing! ur enjoying attention just like any other girl, and congrats, there will be thousands of guys waiting in line to give u that attention.. i dont know what you want in life.. if u think ur enjoying, thats great.. i am happy for you :)

anyways.. I tried telling u that its not too late for us and we can still be together.. i guess if u loved me, u would have come back by now.. but i think u have a mind of ur own.. just wanted to say that, its sooo much better and happier to always be with your first love.. trust me on that.. u will figure that out soon enough.. as for me, I have decided, m gna stop holding on to something that is seriously not even there.. The way i keep trying, it eats my soul away.. it takes too much out of me.. and i cant keep doing that.. i pray for you..

muniaaraaam hai.. may u alwaysss find happiness :) .. my heart will always wish for the best in life for you :)

screweddd

goddd man.. i am soo screweddd.. there are too many assignments due this week and the next week!! and the week after that theres exams!! howwww.. there is no time to study for the exams.. the coding programs we have to do are crazyy.. trust me, they are huge and complex! and doing all of them them yourself is just painful.. dunno how i am going to get thru this study period..

u kno.. ppl here are just dummbbbbb.. i dunno if its the weather or wat, but they are soo sloww and dull.. very dull.. mayb its just the pathetic roomates i have.. mann, they just sit there in this small corner of a room the whole day.... n when they come out to talk, they bring up suchh dull and dumb topics that u feel its better they dont open their mouths only! theres only one guy, pravin.. whos a little bit alright.. but still.. but man, all these dull ppl around is taking a toll on me.

was again thinking of u the whole day.. whenever i got free.. its crazyy.. lets get married, i cant live without u! its like i have to talk to u everydayyy.. dont want to miss out from any part of your life.. dont want to sacrifice happiness for the sake of money...

:)

That was our first valentines day :) .. I dont know why, but i keep remembering that day!

The more i think, the more i feel we should b together.. We have come so far, it cannot be all for nothing..

I remember the first time i asked you out.. i said "come take my hand, and i promise the next couple years will be the best everr" :) .. m not a monster munia.. I really thought what i was doing was the best for both of us.. trust me like u once did.. i love you.. :)

happy :)

for the first time after ages i felt happy yesterday from the inside!! slept soo peacefully at night.. It was as if i had forgotten what its like to sleep in peace and without any stress.. Otherwise ever since I have come to sweden, everythings been too weird and tensed.. I never felt at home. All the nights, I slept with a burden.. Its going to be the same even now, i can already feel tension about some of the things.. but yesterday for some reason, everything seemed alright.. I guess its cuz of saturday night and finally talked to u.. and i guess it was mainly the feeling of hope, that u still love and something could work..

We were happy together.. and that is the only thing that counts! .. i have pondered too much on how we can get married and how everything would be.. it has ups and downs.. but at the end of the day, if we can be happy to be together, nothing else matters! i dunno.. at times i feel i am rushing myself.. thinking about marriage when i have soo far to go.. if i had a sexy job right now na, no one could have sstopped me.. lol.. it all is really confusing, and no matter how much u think about it, there is no conclusion.. I think time will give a solution, there is no point in rushing into everything.. anyways..

Talked to my uncle in England today.. going to start my visa process this week.. If everything works out, i will be there for Christmas! hehe..

Its 2... gonna sleep now.. this week onwards everything is going to be hectic.. too many assignments left and the exams are also coming up! haii.. gnt

remember I always told u, the day we both are mad at each other together.. we will loose everything we ever had! hmm..

I am mad.. u know itt.. but probably i am not so important to u anymore.. anyways.. even i cant let my heart keep holding on to something that doesnt exist.. it hurts soo much everyday.. sooo much prachi.. plzz take it away somehow.. u have ur new found love.. but i am hurting alone...

bahaut ho gaya

yeah ur right.. i have learned my lesson.. I got much better and important things to do! and ur not at all worth it! bahaut ho gaya ab ye natak..

questioning sound

I dunno if u trying to make me mad and angry.. so that i will stop bothering u or something.. i dunno! but congrats, its workingg! the way u talk at times, its like all ur irritation transfers directly on me.. and u were irritated today, dont lie to me!! something, mayb small or mayb big, but something was thr.. its not good.. I was happy the whole day until I made the mistake of talking to u.. howww? and where the hell is ur varun now? of what use is hee!! hell man..

anyways.. trying to calm down.. gonna write about my yesterdays experience!

mazaa aagaya at the rotary pub! these french people can be fun.. hahaa.. one of the guys, he is magician or something.. he had gotten a deck of cards.. and he was sooo good at it!! some of the tricks he performed were just amazingg.. we were just sitting there in awe! he could be compared to david blane or something! hahaa..

got quite drunk.. dont really remember much tho.. dnt even remember the blog i wrote.. lolz.. its soo embarrassing, but didnt delete it.. its weird, before no matter how drunk i got, next i always remembered everything exactly as it happened.. but its been more than a year now i think since the "not remembering" effect has kicked in.. hmm.. anyways..

These guys are offering a masters thesis at IIT Bombay!! hopefully they have projects related to networking.. then i can try for it! .. I dont like the life ovr here.. its too much of an effort. mayb its just this country thats so bad.. but m loosing my heart and courage to stay outside cuz of this experience.. hmm. lets see..

Thinking of going to my uncles place in england in December.. the visa process is kinda complex.. but hopefully it will work out! hehe..

got two assignments due on monday!! have a lot lott to do.. and i am here watching movies and series.. lolzz.

otherwise life is gooood :)