remember I always told u, the day we both are mad at each other together.. we will loose everything we ever had! hmm..

I am mad.. u know itt.. but probably i am not so important to u anymore.. anyways.. even i cant let my heart keep holding on to something that doesnt exist.. it hurts soo much everyday.. sooo much prachi.. plzz take it away somehow.. u have ur new found love.. but i am hurting alone...

bahaut ho gaya

yeah ur right.. i have learned my lesson.. I got much better and important things to do! and ur not at all worth it! bahaut ho gaya ab ye natak..

questioning sound

I dunno if u trying to make me mad and angry.. so that i will stop bothering u or something.. i dunno! but congrats, its workingg! the way u talk at times, its like all ur irritation transfers directly on me.. and u were irritated today, dont lie to me!! something, mayb small or mayb big, but something was thr.. its not good.. I was happy the whole day until I made the mistake of talking to u.. howww? and where the hell is ur varun now? of what use is hee!! hell man..

anyways.. trying to calm down.. gonna write about my yesterdays experience!

mazaa aagaya at the rotary pub! these french people can be fun.. hahaa.. one of the guys, he is magician or something.. he had gotten a deck of cards.. and he was sooo good at it!! some of the tricks he performed were just amazingg.. we were just sitting there in awe! he could be compared to david blane or something! hahaa..

got quite drunk.. dont really remember much tho.. dnt even remember the blog i wrote.. lolz.. its soo embarrassing, but didnt delete it.. its weird, before no matter how drunk i got, next i always remembered everything exactly as it happened.. but its been more than a year now i think since the "not remembering" effect has kicked in.. hmm.. anyways..

These guys are offering a masters thesis at IIT Bombay!! hopefully they have projects related to networking.. then i can try for it! .. I dont like the life ovr here.. its too much of an effort. mayb its just this country thats so bad.. but m loosing my heart and courage to stay outside cuz of this experience.. hmm. lets see..

Thinking of going to my uncles place in england in December.. the visa process is kinda complex.. but hopefully it will work out! hehe..

got two assignments due on monday!! have a lot lott to do.. and i am here watching movies and series.. lolzz.

otherwise life is gooood :)

goddd.. ur getting incredibly irritating these days! its becoming harder to talk u.. u always tend to direct all ur anger on me! its not right.. and it effects me a very negative way.. I left, but it had to be done! for a better future.. and everything is not lost.. its all in ur hands.. stop being so angry and irritated..

m kinda drunk! the beer here is quite strong yea.. havent really gotten use to it...

just hilaofied.. it takes soooo much long to ejaclaulate when ur drunk.. and its soo much more effort!! hhaii.. m tired.. lolz

mazaa aaya aaj! .. it was good.. the next two days have to work really hard to finish off my assignments.. haiii.. lets see how it goes.

I love u.. u know that! kinda feeling thrkey rite now.. lol.. was remembering how we often we made out at goa! lolz..

anyays.. take care.. gna sleep now.. not feeling too well.. feel nauseated.. gnt

this is it..

just finished watching the latest episode of house.. I dont like it as much as i use to.. or mayb it was just this episode (S06E07).. It makes u feel weird. as if dont really understand or have a grasp on life or something.. hahaaa.. yea, dunno how to describe the feeling.

great u kno.. its just great! so now I am not supposed to call u even.. the heights is that the less i talk to u the more i miss u and think about u!!! hell, its killing..
but I feel this is going to be the turning tip now.. I wnt call often, u nvr gna b online, u for sure wont give me a missed call (u havent even given me one yet, its like u just dont miss me!).. and yea, we are gonna end up being out of touch.. whenever i do call, it will b short, something like hi bye types.. so yea, i guess this is it.. even i think i am loosing my patience now.. tried too hard to know u, know ur feelings and thoughts.. tried hard to tell u that i really do love u.. but ur just distancing urself away from me.. whenever i try to get close, u go back a few steps.. soon we gonna loose each other, even our best friendship.. its all upto u now.. hopefully u will open up, and b urself with me, that ways we will atleast remain the best friends.. and as of now, I still feel we should get married.. i dont know how it will be possible, but something could b worked out.. I was thinking today, like always.. what we had was too perfect! its really hard to reach that level of understanding! the only thing that was missing perhaps was physical attraction.. that can b weighed out and considered as per importance... anyways.. at times even I am confused what to do.. at times i feel like taking the next flight and come and propose u cuz i dont want to loose u.. its foolish of me.. and at times i feel like i have actually moved on.. I guess what i want is to always know everything about u, whether be it as a best friend or husband.. but i have a feeling m nt gonna get any! k, i dunno what crap i am saying.. its 3 and got college tomorrow.. so gonna sleep now.. gnt..

work work

just came back from college.. the courses here are really tough yea... one subject i have taken - "real time systems".. its soo advanced! really dont understanding anything.. one assignment is due this week and I have no idea how to do it! hmm.. might have to drop the course :(

There is a lab today from 5 to 9 at night! .. its crazy.. there is too much work, and I am still the same old procrastinator as always.. kabhi kabhi phir phati hai.. lolz..

gonna take a nap right now.. feel like talking to u.. but u mst b busy in office! hahaa..

crush :)

Guess what.. I just found my new crush.. after a long time! hahaaa.. shes an actress from the series "Legend of the Seeker".. just started watching today.. o bhai she lookss!! hahaa.. maazaa aagaya..! the series is goodd, medieval style with swords and magic.. totally my type.. hehe...

Couple pics from the series.. she looks good yea! :)
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Feeling happy and excited after a longg time.. its like my true self.. the way I always like being..

Met Merone today.. it was good to see her again.. it seems shes going to shift back to my course.. hmm.. i havent told u about her yet na? I think she was the first non indian friend I made over here.. will write about her fursat se.. she keeps messaging, but always kept ignoring until now.. hmm.. anyways...

true value

Feeling better these few dayss.. the pain is still tormenting, but I am learning to cope up with it..

Had a party at our place yesterday.. drank a lot.. talked a lot. It was good.. nice way to get rid of pain and agony for some time.. Late at night me and kartik went to the university and played pool! hahaa.. came back and we were talking and listening to music till like 4:30! it was fun.. a lot of people come here, and they start regretting.. we both agreed on the fact that coming here made us realize a lot of things.. the true value of india, the luxury of friends, food.. I wouldnt ever have realized how much I love you.. yes, it is too late.. but atleast I realized..

In the evening today we went swimmingg! mazaa aaya :) .. me and pravin.. nice way to loosen up the body.. and I can actually swim! its weirdd.. I had taken swimming lessons back in my school days, but I never really got the chance to practice or try it out.. today I was swimming back and forth.. this guy came up to me and told me "u swim pretty fast" .. strangeee.. I told him back that i cant even swim! lolzz.. afterwards we also went to sauna.. sexy it is yea! u sweat soo much that it feels like ur taking a shower or something.. and its damn relaxingg! was feeling light headed and nice.. so kinda tired right now.. accha tha...

I dunno where the hell you are.. u have just disappeared! feel like coming and shouting at youu.. haii.. things have changed so muchhhhh......

yaad

bilkul yaad nahi aayi na? itna din ho gaya... and here I am thinking about you all the time! haiiii.. dunno why I am even bothered...

"Tumhe yaad na meri aayi, kisi se ab kya kehna!" .. hahaa..

Sitting in lab right now.. was trying to do the first assignment of Real Time System with my lab mate... but its too toughh.. for the first time I am seriously not able to understand something.. and the stuff is soo new thats its not even on the internet.. and above all, my lab mate is one hell of a dumb guy... dunno what I am gonna do..