speechless

I am sitting here almost feeling lost.. the familiar suffocating feeling is kicking in..

I have talked to you almost every day for the past five years and u have been my soul friend.. i dont know how my mind and body will react to you being gone.. just that thought i am having right now is gut churning.. didnt eat anything all day, n when i tried to have a sandwich, i threw up! it was weird.. i was damn hungry, but couldnt eat :( .. mentally i guess things are a little better, but my body is going haywire!

talking to u today hurt like never before.. its was like ur a totally different person.. nothing effected you..

I dont know what to say.. i am really speechless :(